Tricia;

But I just have to blog about him now. His name is Gabriel Franco Roca Balenton. He is the most complicated person I have ever known. When I met him, he was this fucked up little boy who looked so serious (man, was he dead serious and mysterious). He’d always have problems, sometimes too petty, but he takes them as if they were too heavy (rhymes? ;) He’d be texting about his problems, he was so helpless. I felt like I have been dealing with a child. When I met him a couple of years back, I thought to myself, “What a fragile little thing.. If given a chance, I’d take good care of him and never leave his side.”

And yes, after a year or so of bumpy happy never-easy days, weeks, months with him, I was finally given that chance to be with him. It was still, as expected, never easy. He still is complicated.

But now I see him always smiling, happy, jolly, sweet and caring, singing, dancing… That version of him I never thought I’d get to see.

Being in a relationship with him wasn’t the best, more so ideal thing to ever happen in a girl’s life. We always fight, sometimes over the most stupid things. He makes me cry, actually for so many times. When he’s mad, he’s mean. And no guy was ever mean to me. But oh, he means so much to me.

Our relationship is so peculiar that I don’t think anyone else could handle it the way we do.

And that’s what makes him special.

He’s real.

He’s not the prince, nor the knight in shining Armani. He’s a 19-year-old trying to find himself, trying to figure things out.

In the past 2 years that we have known each other, I have learned more about him. I got to know the deeper side of him. And I am glad I had that chance.

He really is something.

What that is, I would not disclose. 

But I tell you, that made me want to love him more. To understand and respect him, to make him happy.

Now I can see how far he’d come. He is now more responsible, more considerate, more loving, more positive, better…

But I was not at all responsible for those changes.

He was really bound to be like that, to be great. He just needed some push. And I know somehow someday, he can be whatever he’d want to be. Cause he is nothing but amazing. :)

Today is our 7th month, and this is actually past my relationship due date. After 3 months I usually look for reasons to get out of a relationship. But now I am aiming for more, I actually am wanting for our relationship to work. I tell you, this is really a whole new version of me (if you’re close to me you’d know ;P) It’s like TY wearing pink and sporting a Hello Kitty bag.

Anyway my point is that I am in love with a beautiful man, and I pray that he’d get to see it too cause I’m not one to take time to dig deeper in someone’s being, but I have seen it in him. And I know I’m right, I swear I’m right. :)