Tricia;

HOW DARE YOU?

Remember when I was in high school, I was that naive that I fell for you? I was so young and stupid then that I loved you so much. Yes, you were my first love. My friends told me that you were even my great love. But what you did was, since you were in college, and many girls liked you, you took advantage and you cheated on me, for I don’t know how many times… with how many girls. And you always found your way back to me, and I’ve forgiven you for I don’t know how many times as well.

Since I’ve decided to stop forgiving and tried to move on, I have been so insecure.. thinking that no one can love me better because I thought you were the best and you didn’t love me, so who else can? And so I’ve been so cautious and guarded ever since. And you know what, I have left and hurt around 20 men (plus a girl for that matter). ANDYOUKNOWWHY.

Everytime i tried to be happy, you’d come back to me and I’d get confused and I’d just leave the other and say my most gasgas breakup line ever, “Sorry mahal ko pa si…”. When it actually dawned on me that something’s wrong, I actually had good relationships. But then I always leave them whenever I think things get too deep and serious already. 

Well thank you! You taught me how to be scared of feeling anything for people that I can’t face the fact that I am actually capable of feeling so much (unlike you).

Well guess what, I have learned my lesson. And I am now with someone who cares about me deeply and loves me unconditionally and I feel the same way about him. And now, you can’t do nothing about it. 

SO LEAVE ME ALONE, GET A LIFE. You had your chance, you blew it. I don’t love you anymore, and after that message you sent me today, I don’t even want you for a friend. Face it, I am not yours anymore. Not in any way. You are just a part of my past, nothing more.. nothing less.

Adieu.