Tricia;

This is dangerous.

I have never felt this much for someone, I don’t know if I am just expecting too much. But sometimes, or often lately, I feel so taken for granted. I feel like I don’t deserve this. Sometimes I feel like giving up thinking that I deserve better.

This is dangerous…

…if in the long run, I’d still be the one who will understand, and give everything.

I don’t want to give up, but I think I’ve no choice. I don’t want to lose my itsy bitsy self-respect that’s left. I don’t want to desert you for as much as possible, I would want to be there for you ALWAYS. 

BUT I think relationships should not be just about that. I believe that it should be mutual, which is why it is called a relationship. Maybe, if we’d just be friends… I could still take care of you, and I would not get disappointed or hurt if you don’t do the same for me… just like now. 

I don’t want to get mad at you in the end, or regret everything that I’ve done but I AM REALLY HURTING RIGHT NOW I couldn’t even tell you, I don’t know how you’ll react. And I don’t want to see you sad, again. :(